Merry Christmas

Finally, its the day of Christmas. I have been doing a bit of shopping the past week, listening to some Christmas song on the radio everyday, and also a few party/ gathering with friends. To tell you the truth, it really didn't feel like Christmas. It feels like any other holiday of the year. They sing "Its the most wonderful time of the year...." in the radio, but what's so wonderful about it? Because you get to shop for discount price? You get to receive presents? You get to have a holiday and party with friends? Why are we so happy or joyful in Christmas? What's the real meaning of Christmas?

I didn't feel the joy of Christmas until the Christmas worship this morning. We sang a lot of Christmas song. We went through the passage of Jesus' birth in the bible Luke Chapter 2. We talked about this every year. Christmas is not about Santa Claus, shopping, or party. Its the birthday of Jesus Christ. Its about God sending his only son to be with us, to go through all the struggle we face, and give us the peace in life. That's why Christianity is so powerful, because God came to us and experience all the troubles in life Himself. At the end of the service, they passed around the mic for everyone to share their blessing from God in the past year. Most of the people who shared are from the English ministry. I think if they did this in the Chinese worship, 90% of the people will not share and just passed on the mic. I think that's one of thing we should learn and practise from them, to count the blessing more often and share with each other. Although I don't know most of these brothers and sisters personally, but I can feel their joy and peace in Christ. It felt like one big family. That's what fellowship is all about. That's what so wonderful and joyful about Christmas. MERRY CHRISTMAS...

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I know most of you would probably think I'm not a natural sales character, but anyway I've got into this automotive sales industry. I work in Agincourt Mazda as a salesman now. I've started for about three weeks. Its been very tough since business is slow in the winter. Also, I think I've never taken such a big risk in my career path before. My salary is 100% commission based. No sales, no money. I've never been to a job where chances take such a big part of it. No matter how well my knowledge on the cars are, or how well my selling skills are, there's no guarantee on result. I guess sometimes, one got to step out of the comfort zone in order to grow, but I don't know if I've stepped out too far this time. I've never been so worried about my job. I think there are times when I'm about to collapse but God still showed me He's with me. However, it seems like He is watching me from a distance. He doesn't let me fall, but doesn't help me rise either. Everything seems so uncontrollable. I can feel how weak and vulnerable I am. I guess its a good opportunity to test on my faith to God.

I've to thank one of the sister in church for supporting me. After all these years in fellowship, I think I've forgotten how to pray or share with each other. We all think its impossible to have deep sharing in the middle of a crowded room, but she showed me its possible. When she suggested to pray together in the middle of the room, I was very surprised. Surprised because I've a flash of memory of how real fellowship should be, this is how fellowship was when I first came to this church. This is what I have missed or forgotten over the years. Thank you.